Last Sunday at church we had a lesson about being genuine. I feel like I have always tried to be genuine and “real”, almost to a fault. Somtimes I am too honest or speak my mind too much. I’ve been thinking a lot about this topic lately and have come to the conclusion that I really need to be genuinely positive.
I want to be a genuine person, I want to be real, but the problem with that is that sometimes I am a skeptic and a pessimist. I can unfortunately be a grump and focus too much on the negative, instead of just being happy and having fun.
My life has definitely had it’s share of challenges, but overall I really am so blessed. I am married to an amazing man, have a beautiful baby boy, live in one of the best places in the country and never really want for anything. I have always had food to eat, clothes to wear, and loads of other conveniences that others don’t share.
So, my new goal is to be genuinely positive. Yes, if I’m being “real”, I could tell you all about how my son was screaming at me last night, how I went to bed feeling like the world’s worst mother, how my bathroom shower doesn’t get cleaned nearly enough or that even after being a mother for over 3 months I still feel like I’ve just treading water more often than not; but instead I want to be the person that forgets all those things. I want to be the person that remembers how she made her son laugh and giggle, how she finished all the laundry and had dinner ready for her husband when he got home, how she remembered to pay the bills or mail off the birthday card.
For me, the “failures” or struggles always overshadow the small “wins”. Here’s to changing that. Here’s to focusing on the good. Embracing the bad and focusing only on the things that will bring me up and remind me that I’m doing alright.